Sleepless Nights, The Mind Ignites

messy thoughts

There’s something really unsettling to me about staying up all night. Or more specifically, staying up all night and overthinking. I find myself punishing myself for doing so, laden with feelings of guilt for being so restless and undisciplined.

I’ve always wished to be a morning person. The type that gets up in the morning, makes a smoothie out of some weird concoction of green vegetables and goes for a morning run. Do these people exist? I’d like to know.

Truth is, the times I’ve stayed awake all night have been the most enlightening moments of all.

I think, to physically stay awake there must be something very crucial occupying your thoughts. If you don’t know exactly what that is, that’s fine. To me, it’s a general feeling of unresolved-ness (I’m aware that’s not a word – I think that kind of highlights how obscure this feeling is).

I think, at some point in your adolescence/early adulthood you will experience this. I find that the only way to overcome this feeling is to look for inspiration through literature and film. Anything from poems to films to songs.

These sleepless nights have led me to some of my most treasured authors, artists, and musicians.

I’ve always been the kind of person that has to emotionally connect with a piece of art in order to fully understand it/enjoy it. Some films or genres of music for example completely disinterest me simply because I cannot relate to it in any kind of way.

There are only certain times in your life when such self-exploration is possible. For me, it’s been a re-occurrence since the age of about 14. Usually in the summer months, between school, between University. Discovering new art, rekindling old favourites.

In between responsibilities and commitments and life, allow yourself these nights to get to know yourself again. You never know when you might get another chance.


  1. This is beautifully written. Honestly “unreolvedness” is the first word to ever come close to describing that emotion that is almost solely felt late at night when you are deep in research dreaming of future plans and taking in art. I think it’s an unresolved inexplicable yearning for everything you wish you could be doing, no matter how happy you are currently, ya know?

  2. I’m also a night owl. At 2 am is when I get my best ideas (right now is 2:45 am). I don’t sleep a lot but I just have too many thoughts in my head to waste my time sleeping! And I really wish I could be that person that enjoys waking up before sunrise and going for a run because that’s certainly not me

  3. Anna Hicks says

    This really speaks to me(person who has a super hard time going to sleep early)

  4. this is so accurate, I always wondered if someone felt the same way, they are my most precious nights. I feel so aware of everything and my mind is kind of buzzing and overwhelmed but I’m also excited for life? I don’t know but I agree that these times are important for your growth, I love to meditate and journal when this happens, I always discover something new about myself <3

  5. Valeria says

    Is 5:07 am, I woke up at 2:30, I feel the same too much to think unsolved problems, new questions and answers to old ones, my period, my body, the past, family, friends, always ask why I’m not content where am I right now? At first I didn’t knew what I wanted, but now I do but it’s complicated, is exhausting, I destroy myself and examine every piece then I put back the puzzle.

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *